Feeling Crazy

Its that time of year, and my heart still mourns the loss of my David.  At times I wish that I didn’t feel this hurt, but than at other times, I’m glad I do.  It means he was real. The only cliche that I can actually relate to is time heals all wounds.  And time has helped to heal, but it can’t erase memories.  And those can come on pretty strong at this time. 

I do have a little bitterness, I gave birth to three babies.  3…I only have 2 to show for it.  It stings.

I met a lady whos pregnant – very nice, and we’ve become quick friends.  She doesn’t know about David, and I don’t want to mention it to her…she’s pregnant – my story is scary.  I don’t want to scare pregnant people. The other day we were talkinga bout child birth – so I have to “blend” my stories.  I wish I didn’t have too.  but I do.  Its the nice thing to do.

Sorry about the sad post – I’m just done for now

One Response

  1. Hi momma,
    I am so sorry that your hurting and I am not there to give you a big squeeze. I can’t even imagine nor do I pretend to know what you’re going through. What I can do is tell you I love you and that you are a wonderful mother and friend.
    I am sending you very warm hugs and I hope your mind eases some as the night goes on.

    xxxooo

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