almost 5 and 3

Little Miss is on the verge of a potty training break through…its been tough, but shes getting there…Mr Mischief just seems to surprise us everyday with his amazing wit and knowledge. Things are always clicking in that boys head!

Love’n my kids

It was so cute the other day, I was doing after school care for my sisters school and a photographer was there, and asked if he could take pics of Maddie…he said she had quarter eyes (they take up a quarter of ther face) and that he could take pics of her all day, shes so easy!  Not that I need a reminder of how cute my kids are but, its nice to hear it from people not related! LOL

I’ve been on facebook a lot, so sorry I haven’t been updating…heres some photos from the past few weeks

I’m still here!

Well, it looks like I’ve been gone so long and now wordpress have changed some things around – so now I have to get used to it again!

We had a great holiday season – some crazy weather, but what else can you expect in chicago.

I do have some great winter photos that I’ll have to post.  Just a little tired right now.

I do have to say mr mischief was so cute today…we were watching the  snow dogs movie, and hes never seen it before – so when the guy goes to leave the dogs in the beginning of the movie…mischief says “those dogs are really going to miss him” his eyes got all teary, and he started to wipe his eyes with his arms, “mom, whose going to take care of the dogs?” he was very concerned…hes such a great kid!

Am I done?

Am I done with kids?  I mean, the rest of the year, I’m happy with what I have.  I’m blessed with two happy healthy kids…but this time of year makes me question all of that.  That longing to hold a newborn…its just so strong for me right now.  I hear of pregnancies, and newborns and I tear up.  My nerves are so fragile right now.  I’m so confident the rest of the year, that I’m good…I don’t want to be pregnant again – its scary for me.  But right now, I’m so jealous of those beautiful belly’s, and those cherub newborns…I really want one.  But it’ll pass. After this week, my heart and soul won’t be so fragile…and I’ll remember how difficult and scary being pregnant is…and I’ll be back to “HELL NO” to haveing more kids.

Feeling Crazy

Its that time of year, and my heart still mourns the loss of my David.  At times I wish that I didn’t feel this hurt, but than at other times, I’m glad I do.  It means he was real. The only cliche that I can actually relate to is time heals all wounds.  And time has helped to heal, but it can’t erase memories.  And those can come on pretty strong at this time. 

I do have a little bitterness, I gave birth to three babies.  3…I only have 2 to show for it.  It stings.

I met a lady whos pregnant – very nice, and we’ve become quick friends.  She doesn’t know about David, and I don’t want to mention it to her…she’s pregnant – my story is scary.  I don’t want to scare pregnant people. The other day we were talkinga bout child birth – so I have to “blend” my stories.  I wish I didn’t have too.  but I do.  Its the nice thing to do.

Sorry about the sad post – I’m just done for now

Heres some cute pics of the kids!

Halloween Party

This was so much fun!  I was a little worried about finding a costume for Mischief – he really wanted to be GREEN Power Ranger – why I don’t know…he has seen that show 1 time.  But all the boys play it at school.  Now, Red wasn’t going to do, neither was white it had to be green.  No store had one – finally I mentioned this to my friend – She had one!  I later found out, there hasn’t been a green ranger for two seasons.  I really need to keep myself updated on current kid shows!  Little Miss, was a woodland fairy – this is one of my tutu creations.  She then later modeled the bee costume.  I had someone place an order, and wanted them to see the costume in action!

My moms fine

She saw a cardiologist today – the blockage is gone, or was never there…they think when they did the ekg that since she was vomiting so much that it messed up the test.  So shes home relaxing.  Alls good.

my moms in the hospital

My mom took some medication on saturday – thought she had an allergic reaction, went to the hospital…come to find out it wasn’t an allergic reaction, but something a little more serious.  I’m actually thankful she took the medication because it did cause irritation which caused her to keep throwing up.   She has a left bundle package blockage in her heart.  She is getting a stressed test today and we should be getting the results by Monday.  She is suppose to be able to go home Monday – I guess it counts on the findings of the stress test.  She’s acting like its  no biggie – well, the rest of us are concerned.  We’ll get more info today when we visit.

Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers.  Thanks!

What a crazy day

Today has been too long.  LOL.

I watched my friends 18mnth old today, along with little miss, they are quite the combo…then put those two in the car, picked up my sisters kids from school dropped them off, picked up my son, went home, started mowing the lawn,  then my friends other son was dropped off at my house, gave them a snack, they got picked up, went back outside finished mowing the lawn.  Checked email…got a little bit of a surprise, a nice one.  My friend had ordered a tutu, I made it, mailed it…she sends me an email back today saying that the tutu I made was actually for a couple that I knew, who was in my Bradley birthing class when I was pregnant with David.  This couple also lost there newborn (we found this out later at a memorial at the hospital).  We knew this couple had lived by our friends, but I didn’t know that they had become friends.  So it was a pleasant surprise that this tutu had gone to there 4 year old girl.  She must have gotten pregnant around the same time I was preggers with Mr. Mischief.  Its just amazing how small of a world we live in.  As I’m finally putting my kids to bed…I get a call from my sister – shes at the animal hospital with her cat, and some very sad news that her beloved Kinky (16 yrs old) has some massive health issues, and the big lump of love had to be put to sleep.  Very very sad.  This is the first pet of my sisters that has died.  My heart breaks for her.  I’ve gone through 4 pet losses, and each one was very difficult.  It sucks all the way around.  We’ve been lucky enough that our pets have lived long happy lives.  But it still sucks.  You may ask why the kittys name was kinky…get your mind out of the gutter…when this little stinker was born momma cat (who my sister still has) put her kittens in a file drawer, this little one decided it would be fun to jump out of this drawer, but cats don’t always land on there feet, he landed on his tail…it bent.  He had a huge kink in his tail…hence the name Kinky..the vet said it was fine – but it really didn’t look fine, so his tail was amputated and he had a little stump of a tail – he really did look cute. 

Now, I must go finish some tutus and hair bows for my craft show…but I’m so darn tired!